And so it hits me…

 

I’m scared.

I had this horrible nightmare a couple of nights ago where half of my teeth fell out, and as I held them in my mouth to try and save them, they crumbled.  Growing up with a superstitious Macedonian background, I’ve been told that this is one of the worst possible signs one could have.  Past anxiety issues have resurfaced, and I can’t shake this feeling of impending doom.

 

In 2 weeks and 4 days, I have a choice.  Live or die.

The reality is, I could die.  But if I don’t go through with it, I might never truly LIVE.

 

Danced with my kids in the kitchen today.  Watching them play in the garden as I type on this sunny day.  My gorgeous husband comes home from work tomorrow, and in just 3 sleeps, we go on our family holiday.

Just want to enjoy life and not let the fear take over…

5 thoughts on “And so it hits me…

  1. I can’t say I know exactly how you feel, but I’m sending you lots of strength and positive thoughts. I hope you are able to really enjoy your family holiday.

  2. Alexandra says:

    OMG, Tash. I’ve had that dream many times! I can totally relate and all I can say is…your post picture is so on spot. Hang in there, girl!

  3. I had also had a dream about teeth….it wasn’t my teeth it was shark teeth and they were trying to eat me. LOL! I firmly believe our dreams are just our minds way of working out our fears while we sleep. Everything about you is about to change and of course that is scary. You would really need to re-examine if you should have the surgery if you weren’t scared. You’ve got this, though. Strong women (which I think you are one) have a way of telling fear to sit down and shut up and doing what they want. Be afraid, but don’t let it control you. Prayers coming your way.

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